I haven't been myself, physically, since I lost the twins, and have been desperate for doctors to find out what is wrong. I felt that just having a name for all my symptoms would mean at least I would know what I was dealing with and could then start to move forward and know my limits etc. But finding out has kind of made me feel a little bit down about it for the last few days....just shock I think. I know this feeling will pass and my focus throughout is my children. It is quite easy when we are at home doing our own thing, to be able to still be involved and enjoy time together, while taking a rest at the same time. I need and want their home education to be a fulfilling one and the difficult bit can be when we join our local groups for outings and meet ups. Standing and walking are the main problem with my condition, and I can only do them in short bursts. I just don't want the children to miss out because I may need to stop/go home early. I will never give up on home ed. I KNOW it is what is right for them both; and so that is my motivation to do what I must, to not let this "thing" get the better of me!
Those who have read my first blog post will know what "keep it natural", means to me. And I hold fast to that with this new situation that I face. I have been told about several natural methods for helping this condition, some sound quite relaxing and enjoyable, so I shall be looking into those and talking to the physio about them too.
We are a good, close, strong family and have been through quite alot together and always come out the other side, still strong, still loving. I know it will be the same now. I actually feel a little better already for sharing how I feel. Being 'ill' is a tiresome, frustrating thing. It's not always easy to talk about it, for fear of boring people! Sometimes people may feel you are not being positive about it. But if this is what is real life to someone, then sometimes the reality needs to be shared. It's not necessarily being negative about it, maybe just a case of needing to get it off your chest, to ease the burden that illness or pain can give to the sufferer, and to quote a cliche: A problem shared is a problem halved! I am thankful for the understanding and support of my friends and family.
Back to today! I am meant to have completed a lot of housework in preparation for my sister and her children, who arrive tomorrow........I haven't!!! I did manage to plan next weeks meals and drag the whole family out shopping for it all!! They were extremely helpful and we were pretty quick, but I was very tired and achy when we got back.
I had a quick sit down and printed off the new recipe for tonights dinner. We saw this recipe on a new BBC series called "The Good Cook". Phil helped me cook again tonight, and we really enjoyed making this dish together. We were very much looking forward to it........BUT........it wasn't that great! Phil really liked it, but then his nickname at the dinner table is "La poubelle de table".
I found it had too much lemon zest which overpowered the other more delicate flavours and was a little too dry for me. I think we will try it it again, maybe a few tweaks here and there. I just need to think of something to make it less dry, maybe some sort of accompaniment. SO, now you know that not everything in our kitchen is rosy!!! Haha! Infact both children took one look and in perfect unison said "YUK"!!! They were lucky there was pie left from last night!!
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| Smoked Haddock Pilaf |
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."
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